LALALALALALALA

So last January 18th, I celebrated my first ever anniversary with none other than the boy, or should I say man, I loved. I know, it’s really cheesy. But seriously though, I have never felt this way about any other guy out there. If I have, I can’t recall it being this way, ergo, not as important or as memorable.

We celebrated it during our so-called ‘hell week’. I’ll elaborate more on that.. We had to finish our formal report in BioChem. Had our practicals and our Preliminary examination in Histology Lab. Had a very long exam in Histology Lec. Had Sociology presentations to do. Had Medical Technology homeworks too. Also, a Pharmacology quiz as well. Etc etc. So yeah, you get my point. It was so hard to plan out anything for each other, especially with the hectic schedule the week of our anniversary was on. I felt really bad because I was so sure that he wouldn’t do anything, if not, it wouldn’t be as sweet as what he previously did with his other surprises before. (yes, I expected. I know it’s wrong to, but hey, it’s inevitable.) I believe that people who say they never expect are hypocrites. That’s full of crap, but whatever. That’s another story to blog about. Continuing with my story.. Even with the busy schedule we had, I managed to squeeze in my plan for him. It was fairly simple anyway. Just a few candles here and some glitter there, add a little chocolate, and it was good to go. Or so I thought. It as hard producing all those letters with glitters and some glue. I had to sparkle like a goddamn twilight vampire for days. And no matter how red I became cause of the scrubbing, not all came off .__. but after tricking him and convincing him that I had to go early the night of our anniversary (the time when he had his surprise for me planned) and making him cry cause of it.. I showed him how I truly felt, and how much effort and hardship I’d be willing to give and go through just to see him smile again. He was so shocked and his anger for me faded. (he called me a bitch though :)))

Rewinding back to earlier that morning, I gave him his “anniversary gift”, which was just a book that he wanted, and then he gave me a book as well with a blue rose. (it was blue because it was the same colored rose he gave me the first time he gave me flowers. Or rather, a flower ;) ) I thought that was his big surprise. Yeah, It was a big let down that’s for sure. But I still appreciated the blue rose thought. Fast forward to later that night after my surprise.. He asked me to close my eyes. He guided me along lover’s lane in UST where he first cried for me and hugged me. When he asked me to open them, sweet music played and then I saw our friends holding up pink and blue balloons. He was holding two letters with a big bouquet of carnations and lavenders in tow. One letter was a letter to God which he read out loud for all of us to hear (it really brought me to tears) and the other was especially just for me to read. The former, he tied onto a balloon and let it float up to the sky.. So, let’s just say that he went above and beyond what I expected him to do.

So Gerben, I know you stalk my Facebook and Tumblr once in a while.. If ever you’ll be able to read this, all I want to say is that I love you, and I, too, thank God I have someone like you. Someone who constantly puts up with my attitude everyday, someone who cares more for me than himself. Someone who loves me so unconditionally well. Someone who has shown me what it feels like to truly love someone else with no regrets. Just pure and innocent love. I can’t ever find the words to fully express how I feel. Every time I’m with you, and every time I want to tell you what I truly feel, my heart wants leap out from my chest and explode with all the intensity it feels. I’m rambling now and in some way, my words don’t make sense anymore. I don’t make sense. Since the day I met you, I’ve never been the same again. You changed me without you, or even me knowing it. But it shows. It truly does. It was for the better, I know it. Everyone does. My family loves you, my friends adore you, and I.. Well, I.. Don’t know. :)) you figure that out for yourself. Thank you, love. For everything. Truly, I thank you. I can’t wait for the next, and the next, and the next.. Etc.